live or die?

after talking with reynard, it seems like i had an unexpected result. i started to think about my pride and how it always seemed to drive me crazy. i can't ever learn to lose. i'm so afraid of embarassment. yada yada. i seem to have forgotten the taoist way. all this is nothing. it is all an illusion. it can come and go. learn to appreciate life. live

crazy

going a bit crazy i must say. keep thinking of sex. really need sex, but can't get it. so much stress in my mind. if only i had sex, i could get some release. now, i'm playing comp games. but its not the same. no satisfaction at all. just a drug. what ever man. who cares abt ur filthy life. die die. ha ha. everybody dies anyway. chill out. take it easy. go fuck ur life up. see what happens. we're all gonna die anyway