there's always so much to write and so little space. i really don't know how to blog siah. i suppose i'll talk abt ytd's ndp thing. i really was fired up ytd dealing with the kids. I gave a really passionate speech in front of all of them. But i don't know whether it got to them. I'll say another one before the actual one on the 9th. I think i still have a long way to go before i can speak properly but i'm really learning from them. And it really helps that it is smth i am passionate about. Passion can drive you to do crazy things.

wow man, long time never come online. feels apprehensive. there's like a fixed routine to follow. first check email, then check msn and soccer websites. and now there's adding to the blog. my really good female friend came back and i just called her a few days ago. i really didn't intend to say much except tell her to go another friend's gathering. after all, she had ignored my emails and all for the whole year. but i don't know why, once i started talking to her, all my inhibitions got thrown out the window and i started talking like a madman and making a lot of jokes too. but best of all, she said she wanted to meet me. that just took the wind out of me. i don't know why i like her so much but its just stupid. oh well. anyway, one of my new friends had a terrible accident and i visited a hospital for the first time in a long while. i wanted to go for all 3 days but my mom talked me out of it. sometimes u have to go through shit to know who your friends are. oh well, all the best matey! get well and running and laughing soon! i really love talking to you.

working at a factory

I've been working at a factory for a week now, so let me sum up my feelings abt it. Jobwise, it is as expected rather unstimulating on the brain, but i think it is still better than what i had imagined packing to be like. So far i have been called to search through files for a specific no., so that was quite fun. i also enjoy finding ways to pack stuff into boxes so that i can minimise the no. of boxes. Most importantly though, was the learning experience, which was the reason i took up this job. Certainly, i have learnt lots. I have learnt that a lot of foreigners, esp malaysians come here to work in the factories. I got to use malay too, thanks to them as well as the malays there. The pple there are quite friendly, although of course i don't seem to trust older pple that much. i still prefer making friends with pple my age. And i find myself being very critical of pple i meet there. i don't know why. there was this new guy, wong. his speech is rather difficult to tackle, and he is a bit dim. then when i tried to teach him to tape the board, he started to do it very well himself. then my ego was hurt and i started to despise him. but i think he is just dim and i shouldn't take him so seriously. Anyway, i hope to continue learning new stuff and enjoy chatting with the pple there. wish me luck!

My 2nd post

trying to edit the background but still not sure how to transform what i have in my head onto the comp. thats the thing abt computers. just need to keep learning new things. i already learnt html, a bit of javascript and php and photoshop just by bumming around trying to build a website. i'm so bored my posts also very boring. good thing no one reads it so i don't care. let me talk abt my og. i went for orientation camp recently and many of the seniors have blogs. so it kinda inspired me to get one too. after all, i've been writing on the class blog but i don't feel free to express meself there. anyway, i had a really fun time during the camp, but end of the day, i felt that i didn't really manage to develop friendships with anyone especially my fellow freshies. it was partially my fault i guess, as i was negative on the first day and after that i guess it just snowballed. once the negativity starts it's hard to stop. now, during outings, i feel more and more left out. just walking behind. no confidence. i need someone to reach out and grab me or else i think thats it between me and the og...

My first post

Hey man, this is my first post! So exciting. Just like my first kiss. Ok maybe not. all right, i'm too lazy to write anymore. feel like playing futbol manager already. But just to set it straight, this blog will be written with the intention that only unwary strangers will read it. None of the people who know me should realise its me. So I will write anything that i like! yah! without fear of insulting anyone. ok thats all for now. bye bye