wow man, long time never come online. feels apprehensive. there's like a fixed routine to follow. first check email, then check msn and soccer websites. and now there's adding to the blog. my really good female friend came back and i just called her a few days ago. i really didn't intend to say much except tell her to go another friend's gathering. after all, she had ignored my emails and all for the whole year. but i don't know why, once i started talking to her, all my inhibitions got thrown out the window and i started talking like a madman and making a lot of jokes too. but best of all, she said she wanted to meet me. that just took the wind out of me. i don't know why i like her so much but its just stupid. oh well. anyway, one of my new friends had a terrible accident and i visited a hospital for the first time in a long while. i wanted to go for all 3 days but my mom talked me out of it. sometimes u have to go through shit to know who your friends are. oh well, all the best matey! get well and running and laughing soon! i really love talking to you.