Post forum blues

Post forum blues. Why did a guy get into an epileptic fit during the forum? Made me lose my confidence that i never had. i didn't dare to tell them to push his head back even though that was what i thought jie jie told me. End of the day though, it seems like it wasn't the correct thing to do anyway. So maybe it wasn't such a bad decision after all. But I guess I should have at least shouted for help. I just stoned there. Not much of a leader. Not much of anything.

I wanted to meet like-minded people. Suddenly there were so many of them. But yet, something is still missing. Maybe I just want success so badly. I forget the road to success is what's most interesting. But I still have a vision. I know alot of pple don't even have that. That's why they get overwhelmed by school. They cannot see beyond grades. I can. The world is so much bigger than what we see now.

I know i can't speak well and can't grab pple's attention. but i can improve. i can learn. And for good or bad, this is what i am. My friend once told me, ' you win some, you lose some.' I may have lost a bit, but i know i've won a lot more. Courage must never leave me again. NO FEAR!