Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Daily Log 29.07.09

Today quite good. At least in my drunken state I can only remember the good things. But ya, just now I was meeting Nic's friends & we talked quite freely. I made sure XQ stopped talking in german. haha. And lastly, I told Nic tat his friends are cool. I also made sure that I did everything possible as soon as possible. Except the key thing. That was a mistake ;p. ok. i think i should go sleep.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

The Xiaochen story

I realised that I feel disturbed today, partially because I cannot protect the pple I love. I guess that should be something I need to work on as well. Today I was having lunch with the usual gang & they were discussing how to go for the Ruegen trip. Xiaochen complained that 16h train ride was too long. I tried to mediate but as usual, was not really good at controlling the situation. I should have been more firm about it and get the rest to address the problem. eg "如果你们其中一个人病倒了,就不是开玩笑的是。你们应该讨论一下,怎么能让大家玩得开心。钱方面如果能省,当然要省,可是健康也是财富,对吗?"

And also, when Yongxiang said something quite rude, and Xiaochen was a not at all amused, I should have jumped in & scolded him. "怎么这么猥琐。人家不开心了。”

Guess I still have a long way to go before I am fit too have a gf. haha ;p

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Disturbed

Damn disturbed these few days. Don't know why. Tats the most irritating thing. But there are just a few things bugging me recently, so I'm gg to clear those away & hopefully it will be ok again. Really shitty feeling man. Every nite dream wierd dreams. Then cannot study properly either. damnit. Anyway, I've told XQ to contact me. So its time I put my foot on it. And I also posted a facebook msg on Xiaochen's profile, so that side is also settled. I feel better now....

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Daily Log 21.07.09

Wha shit. Depression. Sian. Damn it. Always don't know why suddenly depressed. XQ don't want to come see me also make me depressed. Never help Wangyi throw rubbish also depressed. Wha liao eh. Cannot la. Like tat will go crazy one. Have to get a life man.

Sleeping time: 11.30pm. haha. earliest time in a long while

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Daily Log 20.07.09

Today was a cool day man. After getting too lazy to do so, I finally got so sian today tat I sparked off a lunch conversation with some strangers. And today the 2 pple who were sitting with me turned out to be really cool pple. Martin, the Austrian, is not afraid to say unconventional stuff, like saying Germans should learn the Austrian dialect. And Shwati, the Indian, was very smart. She guessed tat Martin was Austrian b4 he said so. And today, Xiaochen inspired me again with another choice phrase, which I have put up on facebook. I realise now that my journey must be taken with friends who can inspire me. It has been too long that I have hidden my suffering from this world. Its time to get help...

Another new idea is to do a book of Yihanism. Still not sure if it will succeed though. I will need to schau mal mal.

Sleeping time: 12midnite- 8.45am

Monday, July 20, 2009

Daily Log 20.07.09

Good stuff:
Getting pple to practise eco-friendly habits: was very insistent with CX on not putting hot stuff in fridge. Was successful in the end. Yay!
Told Wangyi that he should be stronger than the weather.

TBI:
Correcting the mistakes of others: still a bit shy to do so.

Sleep: 1230 - 0830


Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Daily Log 14.07.09

Good things today: Was very direct with XQ, but with not so good friends, still tend to hold back. Was early for 2nd class, but not the 1st.

Sleep: 11.45-0700 OK...

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Daily Log 10.07.09

Today I was thinking about friends and who I like to be with. I realise that I am naturally attracted to people with strong personality and character. Probably because I always hide my character, I tend to look towards such people as a form of inspiration. I still feel I'm so far away from my goal. But maybe I will never be such a person. Maybe I should just accept who I am. And rather than be that kind of person, why not just surround myself with such people so that they compliment me. Still, I feel so happy whenever I see that I am asserting myself and expressing myself well. It is still a journey I want to take...

Sleep: 11.20-7 (still ok)

Friday, July 10, 2009

Daily Log 09.07.09

Today I was quite pissed with myself for missing the train just because I was desperate to finish an email, but was stuck at trying to translate "helping hand". I consequently missed my lunch date with my friend and arrived late for lab. A lot of hassle for something small. But after thinking about it, I realise maybe I should accept this as part of who I am, faults and all. After all, persistence is usually a virtue. I just suppose I need to know when to let go. But essentially, its not so bad.

Oh, and after Jay's visit, I kinda have some stuff to reflect upon. Firstly, as XQ said, it is quite amazing that travelling with someone is a lot more different than just being normal friends. You really see a lot more and it can become either a lot more exciting or a terrible experience. In any case, it sheds light on the person's habits & character very well. So far, I feel the secret to a positive travelling experience with friends is a "don't tolerate the intolerable" policy. There must be a level of flexibility, but sometimes, must really give feedback. Only then can both sides find a good solution. Remember, always try to understand the other person's point of view b4 giving ur own opinion!

Areas where improvement can be seen:
1. Getting pple to be more positive: Today someone was complaining abt her research work and I didn't mince my words. I told her that with interest, everything is possible, but not everyone is suited for research. I'm quite impressed with my directness so far. 100 marks!

Sleep time: 1045-0700 --- need to catch up on sleep!

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Daily Log 30.6.09

Haha, today I finally scolded someone for flicking away the cigarette butt on the ground. I was like thinking for 5 secs whether to say it or not. But in the end I did, and it turned out quite well. I'm happy about that!

Sleeping time: 1130-4.15. shack! ;(